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Just asking you a tiny favor, if you have the time.
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This is so we'd get free shirts. ;) I hope my shirt would be for an advocacy, should I win. :D

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Found Something

Apologies, but in this picture... I look... amazing. O_O

Teehee.

What is Dead May Never Die

For in this game, I am neither victor nor casualty -
I co-exist merely, a floating matter, free-falling, all-knowing.

Tears will not fall, for what is wept on shall not be mourned over, again.
What is buried should not be dug. For what is in the ground stays in the ground, for the soil to eat.

You could not kill me whether you please, or whether I allow.

I may be gone.
But I am not a casualty.

What is dead may never die.

Enter, Faux Khaleesi.

All Things End

Fairy tales which once soared so free in empty, dreamy hearts and minds soon cease and turn to ashen grey, bringing forth the turmoils of nightmares one have tried avoiding in the first place.

I have flown, I have fallen. I am hurt, but I am happy.

It was fun while it lasted.

Thank you. We'll slowly breathe on.

All This, And Heaven Too

All This, And Heaven Too
Florence + The Machine


And the heart is hard to translate,
It has a language of it's own,
It talks and tongues and quiet sighs and prayers and proclamations,
In the grand days of great men and the smallest of gestures,
In short shallow gasps.

But with all my education,
I can't seem to command it,
And the words are all escaping me,
And coming back all damaged,
And I would put them back in poetry,
If I only knew how,
I can't seem to understand it,

And I would give all this and heaven too, 
I would give it all if only for a moment, 
That I could just understand the meaning of the word you see, 
'Cause I've been scrawling it forever, 
But it never makes sense to me at all.

And it talks to me in tiptoes,
And sings to me inside,
It cries out in the darkest night,
And breaks in morning light.

But with all my education,
I can't seem to command it,
And the words are all escaping,
And coming back all damaged,
And I would put them back in poetry,
If I only knew how,
I can't seem to understand it,

And I would give all this and heaven too,
I would give it all if only for a moment,
That I could just understand the meaning of the word you see,
'Cause I've been scrawling it forever,
But it never makes sense to me at all.

And I would give all this and heaven too,
I would give it all if only for a moment,
That I could just understand the meaning of the word you see,
'Cause I've been scrawling it forever,
But it never makes sense to me at all.

No, words are a language, 
It doesn't deserve such treatment, 
And all my stumbling phrases, 
Never amounted to anything worth this feeling, 
All this heaven, 
Never could describe such a feeling as I'm having, 
Words were never so useful, 


So I was screaming out a language that I never knew existed before.

Independence Day

And I had a prequel.

Today, I received an unexpected message. But nonetheless, I am happy I got it.

I am now free. I should be sad, I know. It should feel bad.

But oddly enough, I'm happy, and it feels light.

It means this is right.

I Am Done With My Graceless Heart

In a relationship, or semi-relationship, it is truly hard to state that you have no hold nor dominion over your partner. I’ll make this short.

There are expectations, both written and unwritten, both discussed and non-discussed. Others are very obvious for even a dialogue, yet those tiny things usually cause scratches, that, when inspected at a nitty-gritty level, causes flames, burns, and even death.

Commitments bring about prospects. Expectations. Obligations that you both should stay loyal and true, that there should be, as much as possible, no secrets unshared between you two. There should be trust, the purest of which, untarnished, and unquestioned. There will be expectations – I am saying this for the Nth time, as these bring about hopes and false hopes, dreams, and nightmares.

These are loads either wanted or not. Nonetheless, these bring about the best in one, once accomplished, and the worst on the other, if failed. Thus, expectations bring forth possibilities of weakness and ruin and decay – ergo, if in a relationship, expectations would either be turned down or removed, it increases the viability of the partnership to last, or to further develop. Just my thoughts. I may be mistaken. Some are just poor performers, so I have these to say.

Some, however, opt to stay as partners, without expectations, but with a confident agreement that they shall be exclusive – in so many ways. Yet, time and again, this claim strikes untrue. One could never say that one will not expect. That one does not hope. That one does not desire reciprocity and permanency.

It is doable but it may be tragic.

Though, without expectations, a partner could not rant nor accuse, nor demand. The saying, Seize The Day(s) holds true – with every moment enjoyed and each conflict averted. It will be as if the fun will never – ever – stop. Hence, in the event that one decides to forgo another, the other has no right, by all means, to complain. An explanation may be given, a discussion may be made, but in an expectation-free relationship, in an open relationship, anything could happen. Anything could progress. Or anything could dissolve.

And I am done with my graceless heart. Tonight I’m gonna cut it out and then restart.  

I have loved. I have expected. And countlessly, I have failed. And they have failed me.

I still hold in my heart the precious, perky, perfect, picturesque, pretty moments I once had, but those are just memories, memories to be replaced, to be overwritten…

A man I knew once said that expectations are weaknesses, it is the termite colony which gnaw on your relationship’s walls.

As a fool, I repeatedly blamed myself, tamed myself, restricted myself from voicing my feelings, from giving word to my thought. I never was listened to, when time and again, I expected to be heard. That's the thing. Perhaps I expected too much. 

Then it just happened. One day, I woke up, and I realized… I’ve been quite an idiot for so long. It has to stop. I have been weak with expectations, for so long. And it has to stop. I have had enough failures, I have received enough scars, I have endured, for so long. And it has to stop.

It is hard to un-love. It is hard to dislike someone so easily. I will cower. I will cry. I will suffer. It is always darkest before the dawn, they say. And when the dawn comes, I shall be wearing a stronger, better mask.

For now, I am but a faceless soul, ashamed, weak, dependent, and even afraid.

When dawn comes, I will be another woman.

And I will be happier, with, or without you.

Behance Card - Keeping This Here

Singing This Tonight with Happy Thoughts... :)

"Shake It Out"
Florence & The Machine

Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play

And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues strong
It's always darkest before the dawn

And I've been a fool and I've been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I'm always dragging that horse around

Our love is questioned, such a mournful sound
Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues strong
But it's always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa

And I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart
'Cause I like to keep my issues strong
It's always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
And given half the chance would I take any of it back
It's a fine romance but it's left me so undone
It's always darkest before the dawn

Oh whoa, oh whoa...

And I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't
So here's to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
And I'm ready to suffer and I'm ready to hope
It's a shot in the dark aimed right at my throat
'Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Well what the hell I'm gonna let it happen to me, yeah

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa

Soundtrack of the Night

Now I miss Freddie Mercury. Must watch our Queen Concert Compilation tonight - or rather, later this morning.

My "very unstable" shift is getting the better of me but I am happy. Good distraction from unneeded disappointments. :)

So far, I feel like... getting down and LOVING my work. I love being an HR Business Partner.

I found it!

At $12.99 (USD), I'd be happy. Think Geek has the cheapest version, though I'd be definitely turned off if this turns out as a glossy plastic replica.

Kinikilig ako! I so have the perfect 'look' with this. :)

What I Want(ed)

Ambition.
Passion and Ambition.
Passion, Ambition and Action.
Passion, Ambition, Action and Results.
Passion, Ambition, Action, Results and Success.

I guess I found the missing piece. Now to find its keeper... :(